Now...  she typed this
i can't sleep!
the thought of it comes to my mind again.
i thought i'll be strong enough to overcome this.
i guess i was wrong!
i just can't forget what happened.
what he said and wrote to me.
it just hurts so much!
did he ever thought about how sad i'll be?
and i won't be the same girl anymore?
i've never felt this hurt before.
i can't stop crying now.
i feel like banging my head on the wall!
arghh!! i hate feeling this way!
i want to be myself again!

She can be herself again when she realised that it's HER shit, her own fault!
Oh ya, did i mention i don't give thought to people?
Do you think i wanna give thoughts to you? ONE who  threatened me now?
I did give you thoughts before you threatened me, not now, it's different. But hey, i won't wanna find fault with you anyway.

okay he wants a break up and i agreed to it after many days of thinking.
so it brings us to being friends right?
it makes me feel even sad to know that your friends are still talking about me!
not only i'm sad, i'm going mad too!
no one knows how i feel now.
maybe i can't even trust anyone now.
except Marielle and Qistina coz they are the ones who are there for me!
and some other people..

Yeah, being friends. Do you think i really wanna be like...friends who sit down talk and joke? You freakingly threatened me! Cmon!
Ugh! Furthermore, you even wanted to be my closest friend! Gosh. You know why they're talking about you?
First place, you said THEY BORROWED ME FROM YOU. and then after the break up, you wanted help from them!
Think about what you did and said to them! Ever thought about it? GOSH! and Lucky that marielle is by your side...Good for you.

you even came to the point to ignore me?
do friends ignore each other?
i'm so sorry but i have to ask this.
what the hell is wrong with you?
is it so hard just to pass me my cert?
do you have to put it at my gate?
since you left it at the gate, thanks!

Sorry about not giving you face to face. I just don't wanna face you for now, and you said you don't know how to face me when you see me.
So, solution= IGNORE. Kaphish? The Action was simple!
What the hell is wrong with you?  Cannot read my actions is it? Yea, ignoring you is the best for both myself and yourself.
And welcome.

to the extent that you even blocked me from msn?
you said this yourself on your friendster.
"I do Hope, after ADDING to the Friends List, we Wont Forget One Another..."
and you even said this to me.
being friends is better than being enemies!
at first it didn't matter to me but as i was thinking,
is it necessary for you to do that?

Well, you MISUNDERSTOOD that, for one, i'm talking about friendster pls. not msn.
Yeah, i blocked you from msn so you won't irritate me, and i won't have know whether you're online or not.
Friendster is friendster...i block u on msn, not on friendster right? It's so the necessary. Because for one, when you see me online,
you'll think of the time spent together and how things were like when we WERE together. I won't want you to think about that. Kaphish?

and another thing!
i wanted to pass you something and i know you'll NOT agree to meet me.
fine! i'm okay with it.
i passed the cd i wanted to give you to Sri on the 17 Sept.
she ask you what day and time you wanna meet.
but at the last minute, you kept giving excuses after excuses after excuses.

Hell ! Oh i gave excuses huh!? Ooooooo, I gave excuses for that seh! ahaha, well think about HER too.
When i can make it, she can't and when she can, i can't. Call that excuses? One more thing, my reasons were
valid pls, not excuses la. Oh, i won't wanna find fault in you..but i will now... YOU THINK I'D GIVE EXCUSES TO MEET SRI?
YOU THINK SO? WEll THAT CD IS YOURS ANYWAY, NO ONE ASKED YOU TO GIVE BACK! Think about it la. First day when she said
she wanted to meet me, i was at the track! We didn't see each other so whose to blame? ME? GTGH. Oh well, sri, if you ever read this post,
there is nothing wrong with me or you...it's just her. Gosh.

i'm sorry if i'm being so sensitive in this post.
i just have to let them out or i'll really go crazy!
it's not hard being normal friends.
i know we can.
i just feel that we don't have to ignore each other after we broke up.
bye.

For one simple fact, you threatened me, you'd think i feel easy talking to you? It's like wanting to talk to a totally insane person.
OR Maybe worst, hey, even talking to Kenyans aren't even difficult as talking to you. You threatened me with that, and you think
things would go smoothly after the break up? You Wish is Going to Great Hell. You'd think things will be normal ah...
You're the first and only(currently only) girl who threatened me to get me back during my relationship with you and you'd expect things tobe normal like my previous two? Gosh, wake up! wake up! There's something faulty in you. Oh yea, things are just going cloudy infront of you now huh.... If you can't see it, DON't MENTION IT. It might just get someone worked up...

You won't want Didi Chong to get worked up will you? Huh? Haha, Oh, it isn't a threat, it's just a precaution.


Wonderful Poem you have here, i shall copy and paste it down here. there you go;

A poem for you!

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new

Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever

Three months and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my life ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see

We decided to go out and make it all alright
It didn't work out the way we wanted it to be
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't take it

I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

bye.


1. Oh, let's see. I won't wanna catch someone who threatened me, i'd rather she fall down.
2. There was something different about you, yea the good stuffs were there, the bad stuff was concealed.Shit i shouldn't even have talked
     to you.
3. You spelt severe wrongly. Spell check pls. Oh yea, Crazy it was, because love is blind. Duh.
4. Well, i never wanted you out of my life, till you said those words. My Fault? You Pretend, i don't. I face it.
5. It's you who decided to go to my house without telling me, at least you tell me i'd be happy to clarify with you. I can't stand you because
     of who you are and what i don't like about you.
6. Too bad, i don't miss you. And oh, ten years later, i'd be happy with another person in life. Not you definitely. Oh, love will stand the test of
    time, but will love stand the person who says those words about family and friends and in the end explained it as a Joke? It's a total
    failure as you can see.

7. Bye,  yeah! Don't wanna see you, though i said you're my friend, I'd rather say, i look forward to meeting kai xiang and jia cheng and have
    a chat with them, than saying i wanna see you.


Oh, one poem for you too.

Payback!

Tralalala--- la la la la la
One fine day, not rainy
not cloudy, but windy
and shiny day.
My Mind Went mad as if
i saw green day.
Food for you i had to pay
I'd rather watch Transformer by
Michael Bay.
You seemed so gay,
really really gay,
that you got me
to accompany you.
You thought about one day,
when we would end up at
hospital bay,
Getting pregnant with a twin.
I'd think about whose heart i'll win!
But all these got thrown into a bin
And memories blown away by the wind.
You once told me you hated arvin.
I tell you he's got good wind.
It's you who has bad wind.
well, it has always been.
You can say that i am mean,
well, what you say about me,
I'll say, it's meaner than mean,
It pierced the heart so hard you think
you'd win.
Well, let me remind  you, mean,
that you've got the worst, most horrible, totally disastrous and catastrophic wind.

One more poem!

Bleed

Curse my friends you did,
And in return you bleed,
Sadness in you, you breed,
it churns about with greed.
Think about the bad deeds,
Ouh, i think you went too deep
to even ask for a good deed!
Their hearts you made it bleed,
Now suffer all you did.
Madness in you, you breed,
It's not as if they think you're Creed.
You can be referred to as weed.
Not the smoking kind of weed, oh,
it's the nutrition BORROWING kind of weed.
Oh, i forgot, weeds don't lend, they take.
And so, did the plants aroud it bleed,
And when they're gone, you bleed.
Sadness in you, you breed,
There's only you to slap your own kind of weed.


Oh oh, wait one more,

Power Turned Sour

Power Turned Sour
Minutes turned to an hour.
You think you had the power,
which in turn made you sour.
Minutes we had, seemed short,
But as days passed, it turns to an hour.
Like vinegar and Cream soda powder,
things were meant to be sour.
Think about it for hours
One day at least 4 hours.
Think how come things got sour,
my answer is because your power
turned sour.



Hehe, you want poems huh? There you go!

Oh yea, if you happen to Read this blog somehow! which i don't care. I'm sure you're thinking about me as a Bus 3Rd. Kaphish? Aha,
If you still think im  that sweet innocent guy, well...haha. tell you what! I'll do whatever it takes for you to think i'm a loser. Oh,
Sadly things turned out this way too with me huh. DIdn't expect that did you? Well, Thanks to yourself.

You can't always blame others for what has happened, think about what you did. If you did think about what you did, Things like this, after the break up wouldn't happen. Kaphish?

See i gotta change my journal again. Aiyo...

Seems like she knows about my blog! ahahaha.

Busted! Oh well, what's there to hide from her!

I just don't wanna her to see my blog anyways.

oh well, studying Poa is really tough man! haha! I gotta slp for a while

though! Haha!

Let's have more bachelor time out! Go play pool, bowling, eat, drink milo ke ape ape la...haha.
Today, i mean, yesterday, i went to Darul Ma'wa to break fast with them.But before that, i met kamarul, Kim and Arif
at Yishun Safra to have a round of bowling, in the end when i reached there(i was late), we went to play pool. It was darn funny
playing pool with them...haha. Long story la...haha. First was me, the stick i used to measure the angle, i hit the ball with that stick while measuring the angle, abis hakim ketawe...he stupidly laugh and take the wrong ball, the stripe 9 has a bit of white, and he thought it was the Cue Ball, he took it. Hahaha, Kan, Ketawe kan orang, ni lah ape...ahh! Karma! hahaha. kelakar lah...
Alright, back to Dahrul Ma'wa.
 My Rose Badminton Party went there and they presented gifts to the kids! They're Cute la! How i wish i can take home one sister and treat her super well ! Haha, We Ate Bubur First, then we prayed Mahgrib, afterwards we went back to the "canteen" to eat pizza, rice and some more lah.

The Drink was nice, as always lah! Got syrup, milk will do for that drink. I forgot what's it called, Air Katirah ke ape lah...spelling fail la.

Then afterwards we went East Coast Park Bowling Centre to bowl! Guess what! I won 1 out of 2 GAmes! hahahaha.

Eh standard ah, first game lost, second it was a come back man! Woo! hahahaha. Arif Gt car la...jealous man...haha.

No worries, License to drive is still at 18! haha! COol.

Can't wait lah. =) Tatas, go Sahur first, and after that go Zizi house to pass her Camera! haha =)

I have nothing to do with the picture in www.crazygreen-girl.blogspot.com
I don't even recognise her as Mrs Chong anymore, and she should delete it away.
I don't really like people who don't think of their actions, instead, they wanna give other people shit.
I don't like people who doesn't find out what's gg on with themselves, and start blaming others.
I don't like people who insult my friends and in turn want help from them
I don't like people who take serious matter as a joke, which in turn hurt other people, by telling them, those are just Jokes.
i don't like people who think they're always right. Fuck them.